Once again I am the bearer of bad news .The angel of death came knocking on my brother in laws door and he gracefully let him in . He lost the fight ,the demons won . I want to think that he didn’t mean to do this . He ‘s played with fire for so long ,maybe he just thought that this would be just like any other time … Just a little to ease the pain just a little to help me sleep just a little because …..
I didn’t think I would take it so hard ,not that I didn’t love him ,just that I knew maybe this would be his destiny and I thought that I would be ok with it .. What I didn’t count on was him doing this after having such a great week before. His daughter had just gotten married still on her honey moon . His ex wife had just moved in with him .They both needed each other . There was still a lot of things to iron out with his daughters .
I had to break the news to my son that his uncle / god father was found dead . I can’t even remember if he asked what happened . I remember doing a lot of crying then hanging up on him to the next call the x husband .
Did I mention the father in law was at my job ,his girlfriend was having a exam done .. he broke the news to me .The next hour was a blur to me between consoling my father in law and my uncontrollable sobbing , which continued pretty much the rest of the day.
We had services for my brother in law eight days later . There was again a lot of crying and consoling . I saw family that I hadn’t seen since the last funeral and I cried even more because it’s at moments like this that you realize how important people are to you and how much you truly miss them .
The eulogy was given by his daughter and she had everyone crying including my son who I had not seen yet shed a tear .. She spoke of the dad that she loved . He was not perfect by any means , but he loved his girls , I knew that from when they were babies, they were his world . He did the best he could with what he had . They are and will be a stronger and happier version of him