Morning coffee in the penthouse…. I’m back after a brief intermission because of life. Don’t you wish you could just press a button and intermittently stop the world for just a little bit. I just need enough time to soak all this in. My life is changing and I feel like a passenger on a bus who keeps pressing the stop button but the bus keeps going. Life as I know it I think is never going to be the same again.
Be careful what you wish for, in the heat of a moment you say things that you just cant take back. Then you get that phone call and you think things will never be the same again For a few days life goes on as usual. No one talks about the big elephant in the room and what were going to do about it.
We all handle it different some will pray, pray harder some will curse the life they have been given and ask why , why cant she be like her brothers why was she cursed with this. While others will not look in the mirror afraid of what they will see that maybe just maybe they could of tried harder no they wont look in the mirror they wont talk about it except to maybe blame someone else for it .We are all to blame and we are not .
You can only hold a child hand for so long eventually you have to let go and trust that they know right from wrong know their demons and are strong enough to fight them back .Not all of them will be lucky enough or strong enough to not give in and play with fire. Two out of three is not bad I guess, but as I watch her sleep looking so innocent I pray why, why cant she beat this ..